Do you have a safe place?
A place where you go that you feel nothing could go wrong, and that everything that is/has happened will be alright?
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
The secret's in the telling.
Everyone has secrets that they keep from others. Even those closest to them.
Only two people know my secret, and they both know who they are.
Goodnight.
Only two people know my secret, and they both know who they are.
Goodnight.
Thursday, June 28, 2007
I could bold this whole song.
There are certain people
You just keep coming back to
She is right in front of you.
You begin to wonder
Could you find a better one
Compared to her now
She's in question.
And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and
The right thing are the same.
Maybe you want her
Maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare
To someone not there.
Looking for the right one
You line up the world to find
Where no questions cross your mind.
But she won't keep on waiting for
You without a doubt
Much longer for you to sort it out.
And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and
The right thing are the same.
Maybe you want her
Maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare
To someone not there.
Maybe you want it
Maybe you need it
Maybe it's all you're running from
Perfection will not come.
And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes
We'd never know what's wrong without the pain
Sometimes the hardest thing and
The right thing are the same.
Maybe you want her
Maybe you need her
Maybe you've started to compare
To someone not there.
Maybe you want it
Maybe you need it
Maybe it's all you're running from
Perfection will not come.
Maybe you want her
Maybe you need her
Maybe you had her
Maybe you lost her to another
To another.
All At Once - The Fray
You just keep coming back to
She is right in front of you.
You begin to wonder
Could you find a better one
Compared to her now
She's in question.
And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and
The right thing are the same.
Maybe you want her
Maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare
To someone not there.
Looking for the right one
You line up the world to find
Where no questions cross your mind.
But she won't keep on waiting for
You without a doubt
Much longer for you to sort it out.
And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and
The right thing are the same.
Maybe you want her
Maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare
To someone not there.
Maybe you want it
Maybe you need it
Maybe it's all you're running from
Perfection will not come.
And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes
We'd never know what's wrong without the pain
Sometimes the hardest thing and
The right thing are the same.
Maybe you want her
Maybe you need her
Maybe you've started to compare
To someone not there.
Maybe you want it
Maybe you need it
Maybe it's all you're running from
Perfection will not come.
Maybe you want her
Maybe you need her
Maybe you had her
Maybe you lost her to another
To another.
All At Once - The Fray
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Don't want to lose it all (part 2).
i was going to wait a few posts before actually finishing this. but i think that now would be the best time for me. i don't think i've had it in a long time where i've spent so much time writing a blog post, and reflecting on things. it's just something that can't be ignored.
Oh, it's that time
It's that time again
Oh, it's all coming back around
There she sees me
Oh my god, this is who I've been
And I'm branded each day.
Go on and lose it
Go on and lose it all
Go on and lose it
(Go, go, go)
Go on and lose it all
Go on and lose it
Go on and lose it all
Go on and lose it
Go on and lose it all
Immediately we find out then
That I can be blamed for this
But then it just figured out today
And you're so sweet, you say
Go now and get your own life, and live it your way
And I hear you say
Go on and lose it
Go on and lose it all
Go on and lose it
(Go, go, go)
Go on and lose it all
Go on and lose it
Go on and lose it all
Go on and lose it
Go on and lose it all
Hey, hey, hey,
Woaahhh,
Hey, hey, hey
Well, and if we find another, then we will get ours
And if we find another, then we will get ours
She's pickin' up her clothes, she's off and she's running
She says to me
Go on and lose it
I think she means well, but man I can't tell you
She says to me
Go on and lose it all
Go on and lose it all
Go on and lose it all
Go on and lose it all
Go on and lose it all
Lose It - Cartel
sometimes the same is different, but mostly it's the same
these mysteries of life, that just ain't my thing
when planes land, heads spin
gets me thinking
'cause no one's watching
and i just fell in
and then i had a mind blank
and then my mind went
sometimes i just wish that i could be in someone else's shoes. but then when i get thinking about it, i just realize that all i ever wanted was right there in front of me all along.
i think something i've realized recently, is that you never know how good or bad things may be, until you actually talk about it. i look around at all the relationships and i wonder to myself why can't i have that? why am i the one, who at the end of the day, is left walking home alone? i can't help but believe in the fact that when the day ends, i feel this way.
and then things changed
my new least favorite time:
5:09 PM
and then things went bad
do you ever get in a situation that you can't get out of?
do you ever get the feeling that things are going to be okay, and that they'll work out for you one moment, and then the next, feel totally let down?
and that's what happened
and that's what fucking happened
i think i've finally realized what the problem has been all along. i think that it's my fault; that maybe i waited too long. maybe it was because i was scared, or maybe it was because i wasn't sure what you would say.
maybe there is no solution. but i think there is. but to say it here, well that would just be one of those "horrible" thoughts.
do you ever contradict yourself?
do you ever feel guilty?
well now i know you do
i guess i'll just have to deal with the fact that things won't go my way. i know you told me i'm a good friend, and that i said the same to you.
it's just funny that you disagreed with me.
now i see why.
i have a funny feeling that i might regret posting this. but i guess regret is just another thing that i'm gonna have to learn to live with. my the "list is bending up".
songs "on my mind":
Lose It - Cartel
Late Night Television - New Atlantic
Black Balloon - Goo Goo Dolls
Such Great Heights (The Postal Service Cover) - Iron & Wine
See the Sun - Black Lab
Wire and Stone - New Atlantic
No Other Way - Jack Johnson
Whatever Gets You Through the Night - Los Lonely Boys
God - Jack's Mannequin
Zero - Hawk Nelson
Caught By The River - The Doves
Overkill - Colin Hay
Have It All - Jeremy Kay
Ghost - Howie Day
All the Memories - The Classic Crime
My Bidness - Kyle Williams
have a listen. i think you'll find them to your liking.
guess what? i'm Driven By Sound. yeah that's not going to make sense to more than half of you. actually most of this isn't going to make sense to most of you. but hey, i guess this is for me. it's nice to do something for yourself once in a while.
i just want to say one thing:
the biggest problem i have is controlling my emotions, as you might have noticed. being this close to someone is nice; at least i have someone to talk to. but at the same time, i find it hard to talk to you. but then again, my emotions aren't going away. and i don't think that letting them go away is a solution.
also:
do what you have to do
p.s. title contradicts the song
Oh, it's that time
It's that time again
Oh, it's all coming back around
There she sees me
Oh my god, this is who I've been
And I'm branded each day.
Go on and lose it
Go on and lose it all
Go on and lose it
(Go, go, go)
Go on and lose it all
Go on and lose it
Go on and lose it all
Go on and lose it
Go on and lose it all
Immediately we find out then
That I can be blamed for this
But then it just figured out today
And you're so sweet, you say
Go now and get your own life, and live it your way
And I hear you say
Go on and lose it
Go on and lose it all
Go on and lose it
(Go, go, go)
Go on and lose it all
Go on and lose it
Go on and lose it all
Go on and lose it
Go on and lose it all
Hey, hey, hey,
Woaahhh,
Hey, hey, hey
Well, and if we find another, then we will get ours
And if we find another, then we will get ours
She's pickin' up her clothes, she's off and she's running
She says to me
Go on and lose it
I think she means well, but man I can't tell you
She says to me
Go on and lose it all
Go on and lose it all
Go on and lose it all
Go on and lose it all
Go on and lose it all
Lose It - Cartel
sometimes the same is different, but mostly it's the same
these mysteries of life, that just ain't my thing
when planes land, heads spin
gets me thinking
'cause no one's watching
and i just fell in
and then i had a mind blank
and then my mind went
sometimes i just wish that i could be in someone else's shoes. but then when i get thinking about it, i just realize that all i ever wanted was right there in front of me all along.
i think something i've realized recently, is that you never know how good or bad things may be, until you actually talk about it. i look around at all the relationships and i wonder to myself why can't i have that? why am i the one, who at the end of the day, is left walking home alone? i can't help but believe in the fact that when the day ends, i feel this way.
and then things changed
my new least favorite time:
5:09 PM
and then things went bad
do you ever get in a situation that you can't get out of?
do you ever get the feeling that things are going to be okay, and that they'll work out for you one moment, and then the next, feel totally let down?
and that's what happened
and that's what fucking happened
i think i've finally realized what the problem has been all along. i think that it's my fault; that maybe i waited too long. maybe it was because i was scared, or maybe it was because i wasn't sure what you would say.
maybe there is no solution. but i think there is. but to say it here, well that would just be one of those "horrible" thoughts.
do you ever contradict yourself?
do you ever feel guilty?
well now i know you do
i guess i'll just have to deal with the fact that things won't go my way. i know you told me i'm a good friend, and that i said the same to you.
it's just funny that you disagreed with me.
now i see why.
i have a funny feeling that i might regret posting this. but i guess regret is just another thing that i'm gonna have to learn to live with. my the "list is bending up".
songs "on my mind":
Lose It - Cartel
Late Night Television - New Atlantic
Black Balloon - Goo Goo Dolls
Such Great Heights (The Postal Service Cover) - Iron & Wine
See the Sun - Black Lab
Wire and Stone - New Atlantic
No Other Way - Jack Johnson
Whatever Gets You Through the Night - Los Lonely Boys
God - Jack's Mannequin
Zero - Hawk Nelson
Caught By The River - The Doves
Overkill - Colin Hay
Have It All - Jeremy Kay
Ghost - Howie Day
All the Memories - The Classic Crime
My Bidness - Kyle Williams
have a listen. i think you'll find them to your liking.
guess what? i'm Driven By Sound. yeah that's not going to make sense to more than half of you. actually most of this isn't going to make sense to most of you. but hey, i guess this is for me. it's nice to do something for yourself once in a while.
i just want to say one thing:
the biggest problem i have is controlling my emotions, as you might have noticed. being this close to someone is nice; at least i have someone to talk to. but at the same time, i find it hard to talk to you. but then again, my emotions aren't going away. and i don't think that letting them go away is a solution.
also:
do what you have to do
p.s. title contradicts the song
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Don't want to lose it all (part 1).
welcome!
so i figured i should actually come back here for real. i was considering posting more lyrics of other peoples songs and quotes that somehow get to me, but i figured what the hell, let's have some fun.
monday, november 15, 2005
dear god, why does my past continue to haunt me?! i've tried running but that doesn't work. i've tried ignorance but that doesn't work. i've tried everything short of doing something completely stupid, but nothing works. music does make me think, and most of the time that's not good. but you know what also makes me think..pictures.
it's true, pictures are worth a thousand words. too bad that's not enough.
would you go back in time and change things if you could?
would you do anything you could in order to get things back to the way they were?
would you give up what you have for me?
or would you give it up because you think it'll make things better?
maybe that's just what i want.
so i figured i should actually come back here for real. i was considering posting more lyrics of other peoples songs and quotes that somehow get to me, but i figured what the hell, let's have some fun.
monday, november 15, 2005
dear god, why does my past continue to haunt me?! i've tried running but that doesn't work. i've tried ignorance but that doesn't work. i've tried everything short of doing something completely stupid, but nothing works. music does make me think, and most of the time that's not good. but you know what also makes me think..pictures.
it's true, pictures are worth a thousand words. too bad that's not enough.
would you go back in time and change things if you could?
would you do anything you could in order to get things back to the way they were?
would you give up what you have for me?
or would you give it up because you think it'll make things better?
maybe that's just what i want.
Sunday, June 03, 2007
A walk through the hall of memories.
There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard,
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart,
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things,
Like a shoebox of photographs,
With sepiatone loving,
Love is the answer
At least for most of the questions in my heart,
Like why are we here? And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy,
And sometimes life can be deceiving,
I'll tell you one thing, its always better when we're together
...
I believe in memories
They look so, so pretty when I sleep
Hey now, and when, and when I wake up,
You look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time,
And there is no, no song I could sing
And there is no combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing,
We're better together
Better Together - Jack Johnson
I just don't want to look back and wonder what could've been.
I could put on the back of a postcard,
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart,
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things,
Like a shoebox of photographs,
With sepiatone loving,
Love is the answer
At least for most of the questions in my heart,
Like why are we here? And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy,
And sometimes life can be deceiving,
I'll tell you one thing, its always better when we're together
...
I believe in memories
They look so, so pretty when I sleep
Hey now, and when, and when I wake up,
You look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time,
And there is no, no song I could sing
And there is no combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing,
We're better together
Better Together - Jack Johnson
I just don't want to look back and wonder what could've been.
Thursday, May 24, 2007
And through the sleeplessness.
You know it ain't easy
For these thoughts here to leave me
There's no words to describe it
In French or in English
Well, diamonds they fade
And flowers they bloom
And I'm telling you
These feelings won't go away
They've been knockin' me sideways
They've been knockin' me out lately
Whenever you come around me
These feelings won't go away
They've been knockin' me sideways
I keep thinking in a moment that
Time will take them away
But these feelings won't go away
Sideways - Citizen Cope
Sometimes I wonder why.
For these thoughts here to leave me
There's no words to describe it
In French or in English
Well, diamonds they fade
And flowers they bloom
And I'm telling you
These feelings won't go away
They've been knockin' me sideways
They've been knockin' me out lately
Whenever you come around me
These feelings won't go away
They've been knockin' me sideways
I keep thinking in a moment that
Time will take them away
But these feelings won't go away
Sideways - Citizen Cope
Sometimes I wonder why.
Friday, May 11, 2007
Cold Shower's in Hot Weather
hi everyone!
man, everything's so backwards. i actually thought i grew out of everything here, but i really don't think i want to. but i think i did, which isn't cool. how come time is never on my side? how come the amount of time i use to figure things out in my head, is the time that i can never get back?
damn past, damn you past!
i think i'm loving the warm weather. it means i can wear sandals again. like i did almost 2 months ago, when we walked along the beach holding hands, with the sunset behind us, and you told me things i didn't want to hear. but part of that's a lie, and i know it.
i want to be a superhero. either that or i need a hero, either would be nice.
if i were to write an album right now, the tracklisting would be:
man, everything's so backwards. i actually thought i grew out of everything here, but i really don't think i want to. but i think i did, which isn't cool. how come time is never on my side? how come the amount of time i use to figure things out in my head, is the time that i can never get back?
damn past, damn you past!
i think i'm loving the warm weather. it means i can wear sandals again. like i did almost 2 months ago, when we walked along the beach holding hands, with the sunset behind us, and you told me things i didn't want to hear. but part of that's a lie, and i know it.
i want to be a superhero. either that or i need a hero, either would be nice.
if i were to write an album right now, the tracklisting would be:
- It Should Have Been Me
- My Fault
- Imaginary Heroes
- Confusion is a Cold Shower
look! i just made an EP..i guess that increases my coolness level a whole bunch!
if i could describe how i'm feeling with one song it would be:
Human - Jon McLaughlin
listen to it!
oh, and John "J.D." Dorian, i know how you feel.
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Monday, February 12, 2007
i think i skipped a page of life
tell me a story where i was the king
play out the picture like it was a scene
from a movie you've wanted to watch for so long
but words are exed out, they must of been wrong
i've grimaced so senseless as i try to find
a story that makes me feel so sublime
please help me discover what it takes to love
or at least love me back, this love life is rough
here i go, i'm falling back into the cycle
where i feel lonely and spiteful
and i am destined to be
a singularity
here i am
watching as my other side
in darkness without any light
all the sadness, loneliness, and rage
but just ignore it, skip a page
wasted so much time drinking down the things
that weighed on my mind gave alcoholic dreams
but it all came back up and made me sick
i couldn't hold it down, the liquor was too thick
so jealous and zealous that i have become
racing to disaster what the hell have i done?
thinking of days that were long ago
just wanted to have something i could show
here i go
i'm falling back into the cycle
where i feel lonely and spiteful
and i am destined to be
a singularity
here i am
watching as my other side
left in darkness without any light
all the sadness, loneliness, and rage
but just ignore it, skip a page
tell me a story where i was the king
play out the picture like it was a scene
the story you told me i wish you would
not have told the one with me as damaged goods
play out the picture like it was a scene
from a movie you've wanted to watch for so long
but words are exed out, they must of been wrong
i've grimaced so senseless as i try to find
a story that makes me feel so sublime
please help me discover what it takes to love
or at least love me back, this love life is rough
here i go, i'm falling back into the cycle
where i feel lonely and spiteful
and i am destined to be
a singularity
here i am
watching as my other side
in darkness without any light
all the sadness, loneliness, and rage
but just ignore it, skip a page
wasted so much time drinking down the things
that weighed on my mind gave alcoholic dreams
but it all came back up and made me sick
i couldn't hold it down, the liquor was too thick
so jealous and zealous that i have become
racing to disaster what the hell have i done?
thinking of days that were long ago
just wanted to have something i could show
here i go
i'm falling back into the cycle
where i feel lonely and spiteful
and i am destined to be
a singularity
here i am
watching as my other side
left in darkness without any light
all the sadness, loneliness, and rage
but just ignore it, skip a page
tell me a story where i was the king
play out the picture like it was a scene
the story you told me i wish you would
not have told the one with me as damaged goods
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
drugged on love
where has everyone gone?
what has happened to this world we have here?
lyrics stuck in my head:
one, you are beautiful
two, you are wonderful, but
three, you've got praxter's in every pocket
p.s. can anyone tell me what a praxter is? your opinion is much appreciated (i just want to see what you all think a praxter is)
what has happened to this world we have here?
lyrics stuck in my head:
one, you are beautiful
two, you are wonderful, but
three, you've got praxter's in every pocket
p.s. can anyone tell me what a praxter is? your opinion is much appreciated (i just want to see what you all think a praxter is)
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
lay down your emotion
i lay here on this bed of nails
and you cried out for help
they're piercing through my skin
with blood stains on your lips
you whispered to God to save you
but it was more than just a whisper
so i screamed into the darkness
hoping that someone would hear me
but they responded with silence
and with the thoughts of suicide
running through my head
i came to the true realization
that i was already dead
and i cried to this realization
i cried to God for reason
and your blood stains on my lips
with hope of escaping this emotion
i laid down on this bed of nails
hoping to escape this emotion
this is my last dance for now
goodbye and goodnight
sincerly,
lost out of love
and you cried out for help
they're piercing through my skin
with blood stains on your lips
you whispered to God to save you
but it was more than just a whisper
so i screamed into the darkness
hoping that someone would hear me
but they responded with silence
and with the thoughts of suicide
running through my head
i came to the true realization
that i was already dead
and i cried to this realization
i cried to God for reason
and your blood stains on my lips
with hope of escaping this emotion
i laid down on this bed of nails
hoping to escape this emotion
this is my last dance for now
goodbye and goodnight
sincerly,
lost out of love
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
a tree without roots
What I want from you is empty your head
What I want from us is learn to let go
you
you
you
bleed
bleed
bleed
hate
hate
hate
me
me
me
Hell when you're around
out
out
out
What I want from this
you
you
you
leave
leave
leave
hate
hate
hate
hate me
let
let
let
It's hell when you're around
you
you
you
leave
leave
leave
It's nothing anyway
hate
hate
hate
me
me
me
Hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out, let me out, let me out
It's nothing anyway
What I want from us is learn to let go
you
you
you
bleed
bleed
bleed
hate
hate
hate
me
me
me
Hell when you're around
out
out
out
What I want from this
you
you
you
leave
leave
leave
hate
hate
hate
hate me
let
let
let
It's hell when you're around
you
you
you
leave
leave
leave
It's nothing anyway
hate
hate
hate
me
me
me
Hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out, let me out, let me out
It's nothing anyway
Monday, December 18, 2006
from the lack of sleep and bloodshot eyes
it's been a long time. yes it has. every time i try to do this, i get halfway and then erase the whole thing. don't ask me why. it's obviously for some reason i don't know. yah, it's that obvious. so i just thought i'd do this just to let all you know what's been going on in my part of life in the last little while.
well i've been busy. not that busy busy where i have so much to do, but that busy where i have stuff to do, but put it off till the last second so to make myself really busy. it's like right now, i should be working on some project or paper that will "help me later on", as my parents would put it. but i'm not going to get into that right now. i'll just give you a list of things that has happened in my life as of late ('cause we all know you love lists).
i have:
- been writing
- been not sleeping (for all who don't know, and i'm sure that's a lot of you, i've been suffering from a mild insomnia for the past two months)
- been in love
- been broken hearted
- been sick
- been tired
- been energized
- been touched
- been in my dreams
- been singing
- been playing guitar
- been watching movies
- been at sleep overs
- been staying up way too late
- been talking
- been talking to myself
- been swinging
- been partying
- been trying to quit msn
- been listening to music a lot
- been listening to new bands
- been trying to figure out a way to record myself
- been trying to play the piano
- been hating school
- been loving school
- been hating people
- been loving people
- been so far down, that's there's no possible way to get back up
- been reading past writings
- been reading other people's past writings
- been wanting to get away
- been avoiding situations
- been running away from emotions
- been not myself
here's a song:
another day and a whole new story
these past few weeks have been just a daze
i think i might have just closed my eyes
i've only got a few centuries to make a dent in the world
i’ve only got a small amount of time
i cant keep throwing every second i’ve got down the wishing well
in the hope that luck will find me
seek out this mediocre misery
just take my hand and bring me around
there is more to this life than just following the tide
don’t hold out beneath the linen this time
the emergency buttons aren’t just an escape
a serenade for the artist among us
who never had to face the consequence
i don’t want to be another sad excuse
couldn’t spend another night all alone
wishing that i could have done things differently
living for the moment seems to be so insecure
defined by character, we aren’t that much different anymore
the safest way around the assault course before us
like everyone else looking for another way out
but not so easy as to just walk around
it’s all about taking this head on
matter over mind for once
i'll make sure i’m standing strong tonight
brace myself for everything life can throw at me this time
now where were we. i could start with a lot of things, or maybe i won't start with anything at all. but what's the point of writing something long, without having a meaning?
so i'll ask you a question:
do you believe in absolute truth?
now here's a proverb for you:
A snowball stands no chance in hell
But this is Earth
how's about analogies..do you go for those?
you are my drug
and i am in withdrawl
(i know, i've used that one before)
this post has been a little different than what you're all used to. it's more the "so obvious that it hurts" kind of post. i guess it's cause i'm sick and tired of trying to explain myself. it gets annoying when nobody gets you, or gets what's going on. it's also kind of funny when people pretend they think they know what's going on. 'cause you sit there, nod your head and smile, just thinking to yourself "i don't know why they do this".
how's about a song by Sherwood. it's called What Lucy Found There:
all the leaves upon this tree
are forming words and pointing them at me
could it be a kind of sign
informing me that i've been out of line?
all the pages in this book
are giving me and interesting look
can they see beneath my eyes?
and if they could, i wonder what they'd find
and i won't feel alone tonite
'cause i can see the candle burning bright
and the shadows and the light
will keep my company tonight
it's a good song, you should listen to it...
yes, i think you should.
i find it funny how people can say things like, "oh don't worry about it. i know exactly how you are feeling." it's things like that just piss me off enough to do something. how can they know exactly how you are feeling when they aren't you. there's only two possible reasons that i can figure out how they would know exactly what i am thinking or feeling:
1. They can read minds - now i know that in reality this is impossible. The only way that they would be able to read minds would be if they had some sort of super power. The only person who i can think of that can read minds would be Professor Charles Xavier from the X-Men series. Okay, so he can read minds, but he's not a part of true reality.
2. They are God - and we all know that you're not. So stop pretending. Only God can read minds, me made us in his image, so it's only natural that he knows what we are thinking and feeling.
i finally got my JVIS test back, and i must say that i'm pleased with my results (but also somewhat surprised).
top 3 basic interest's:
1. Author-Journalism (93%)
2. Performing Arts (93%)
3. Nature-Agriculture (92%)
top 2 occupational themes:
1. Expressive (93%)
2. Practical (79%)
academic satisfaction:
486 (46%)
similarity to college students:
1. health, physical education and recreation (+0.56 similar)
2. environmental resource management (+0.44 similar)
3. performing arts (+0.40 similar)
similarity to job groups:
1. occupations in entertainment (+0.59 similar)
2. occupations in music (+0.54 similar)
3. occupations in fine art (+0.49 similar)
so there you have it. my jvis made me actually look at what i wanted to do, and i think i've changed my mind. i don't know if that's good or bad, can't really tell.
now i'm going to rant a bit.
why do we ask questions to which we already know the answer? because there has to be a reason for everything. reason controls our world. but reason does not come solely by itself. there are obvious strings attatched, because with reason comes truth. and reason and truth do not stand alone. if you have reason and truth, you must have trust. trust is the main element, it is the controller. reason and truth can only come through trust, and without trust, reason and truth cannot exist. it's unexplainable. i guess you could say that trust is an "unofficial" emotion. there are many different emotions, all of which are things you cannot deny, things you must accept. but trust is something that you must learn, it doesn't just come to you. you need to believe in trust to have trust.
i guess it's a matter of personal opinion. so here's where i leave you. i've given you my trust, now it's up to you to trust my trust, and give me that trust back.
(it all makes sense in my mind)
so i guess that pretty much wraps up this post. my life has been different lately, i guess i've changed.
please tell me if it's for better or for worse
sound,
brent
Friday, November 24, 2006
mountains and molehills, just manmade
send for the gallows, it's time to lay down the law
we'll hang this architect for all he's worth
overlooking every last bridge he built
his handywork
it might as well have been the rope around his neck
he never saw much beauty in this city
and as blank eyes woke up once more
he promised himself he would burn it all down
dance in the firelight, there is beauty in destruction
there is beauty in this naked flame
is it amongst every last fist we throw
every word etched in stone and flesh
is our human nature flawed?
cause we fight for our dreams and when we get there we just want that little bit more
desperation sets fire to these very bottles we drink from
and then tosses them our way
but you can bet they remember his name
live by whatever you have, but you will die by the blade
whether it be broken glass spilled of your own accord
or knife thrust straight into your chest
when we are six feet under we are all the same
overdressed for decay
a rock lies above me with some half hearted words
and etched above lies my name
in a few more years it'll be worthless too
nobody ever looked out for me
so when i fall down for the very last time
i'm taking my acheivements with me
such disrespect for what i've done and what i've been through
shows exactly what we have become
darwin was right, we fight for survival, but then die tired
nobody ever looked out for me
mr hangman, take it away
i gave you my life story, now lets bring it to an end
we'll hang this architect for all he's worth
overlooking every last bridge he built
his handywork
it might as well have been the rope around his neck
he never saw much beauty in this city
and as blank eyes woke up once more
he promised himself he would burn it all down
dance in the firelight, there is beauty in destruction
there is beauty in this naked flame
is it amongst every last fist we throw
every word etched in stone and flesh
is our human nature flawed?
cause we fight for our dreams and when we get there we just want that little bit more
desperation sets fire to these very bottles we drink from
and then tosses them our way
but you can bet they remember his name
live by whatever you have, but you will die by the blade
whether it be broken glass spilled of your own accord
or knife thrust straight into your chest
when we are six feet under we are all the same
overdressed for decay
a rock lies above me with some half hearted words
and etched above lies my name
in a few more years it'll be worthless too
nobody ever looked out for me
so when i fall down for the very last time
i'm taking my acheivements with me
such disrespect for what i've done and what i've been through
shows exactly what we have become
darwin was right, we fight for survival, but then die tired
nobody ever looked out for me
mr hangman, take it away
i gave you my life story, now lets bring it to an end
Saturday, November 18, 2006
history repeats itself
[it's true, history repeats itself]
i was looking through my closet, when i found some old writings of mine. i think i wrote them the beginning of grade 10. each are just short, separate poem things. here you go...
he's the unsuspecting victim
of her unsupected rage
and his thoughts remain tangled
as she turns and walks away
i sing lullabyes
under the quiet of blue skies
and you'll know where to find me
when you hear my mumbled cries
and i'm living in this shoebox
which is my tiny escape
the shoes my expensive haven
but the box my lonely place
she asked me the definition of love
and i said that love is something that you feel
something that you feel for someone else
a emotion that you can't escape from
but an emotion that escapes from you
i'd like to say
those things i can't say
but then what would be the point
of calling them things i can't say
so lay down my loved one
listen to the words of your loved one
sleep well on this bed of nails
don't wake up till tomorrow
i was looking through my closet, when i found some old writings of mine. i think i wrote them the beginning of grade 10. each are just short, separate poem things. here you go...
he's the unsuspecting victim
of her unsupected rage
and his thoughts remain tangled
as she turns and walks away
i sing lullabyes
under the quiet of blue skies
and you'll know where to find me
when you hear my mumbled cries
and i'm living in this shoebox
which is my tiny escape
the shoes my expensive haven
but the box my lonely place
she asked me the definition of love
and i said that love is something that you feel
something that you feel for someone else
a emotion that you can't escape from
but an emotion that escapes from you
i'd like to say
those things i can't say
but then what would be the point
of calling them things i can't say
so lay down my loved one
listen to the words of your loved one
sleep well on this bed of nails
don't wake up till tomorrow
Thursday, November 09, 2006
watermark
i count to three and grin
you smile and let me in
we sit and watch the wall you painted purple
speech will spill on space
our little cups of grace
but pauses rattle on about the way that you cut the snow-fence,
braved the blood,
the metal of those hearts that you always end up pressing your tongue to
how your body still remembers things you told it to forget
how those furious affections followed you
i've got this store-bought way of saying i'm okay,
and you learned how to cry in total silence
we're talented and bright
we're lonely and uptight
we've found some lovely ways to disappoint,
but the airport's almost empty this time of the year,
so let's go play on a baggage carousel
set our watches forward like we're just arriving here
from a past we left in a place we knew too well
you smile and let me in
we sit and watch the wall you painted purple
speech will spill on space
our little cups of grace
but pauses rattle on about the way that you cut the snow-fence,
braved the blood,
the metal of those hearts that you always end up pressing your tongue to
how your body still remembers things you told it to forget
how those furious affections followed you
i've got this store-bought way of saying i'm okay,
and you learned how to cry in total silence
we're talented and bright
we're lonely and uptight
we've found some lovely ways to disappoint,
but the airport's almost empty this time of the year,
so let's go play on a baggage carousel
set our watches forward like we're just arriving here
from a past we left in a place we knew too well
Thursday, November 02, 2006
i had intention of posting before i left this weekend
so i followed up on that intention
time my run and see how far
it takes for me to reach a star,
and look back with triumphant gaze
and never see you, only space.
happiness to slide away,
with just cause a smile grows faint,
friends can't part like Red Sea waves,
despondent Gods can never save.
drift in peace, and sail to space,
float round planets of my face,
watch me from your falling star
and fall away, and fall afar.
quietly dissolve in time,
escape the shadows of my mind.
leave me here, with just a trace,
so all I have is time and space.
be a star, and fall to me,
mirror my astrology.
be a ship, forever flight,
and silently pass in my night.
so i followed up on that intention
time my run and see how far
it takes for me to reach a star,
and look back with triumphant gaze
and never see you, only space.
happiness to slide away,
with just cause a smile grows faint,
friends can't part like Red Sea waves,
despondent Gods can never save.
drift in peace, and sail to space,
float round planets of my face,
watch me from your falling star
and fall away, and fall afar.
quietly dissolve in time,
escape the shadows of my mind.
leave me here, with just a trace,
so all I have is time and space.
be a star, and fall to me,
mirror my astrology.
be a ship, forever flight,
and silently pass in my night.
Sunday, October 29, 2006
a question:
is it better to let a strong relationship stop ubruptly, and purposefully, so that you remember how much it means to you, but it hurts like hell?
or is it better for it to fizzle out slowly, so that it doesn't hurt...but the memories and feelings of it all fade into obscurity and you forget how much it all meant?
is it better to let a strong relationship stop ubruptly, and purposefully, so that you remember how much it means to you, but it hurts like hell?
or is it better for it to fizzle out slowly, so that it doesn't hurt...but the memories and feelings of it all fade into obscurity and you forget how much it all meant?
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
memories in a photograph
a lot of you have said that you are at a loss for words, or that words just aren't coming to you. but for me, words are the only describable way. so here are the words, words for you.
i want you to go back two posts. two of my posts. and look at the link that is there, and if it isn't working, here it is:
photo prayer
and i also found another type thing. here:
family
(and this post is in small writing, because i'm feeling small right now)
memories in a photograph
memories captured in a photograph
we want them to stay, last forever
not fading away in our thoughts, never
a memory for the ones who can’t recall
sepia colours on the photo frame
feelings captured so nice
but only this one moment
this moment frozen in time
photos fading never
unclear sepia shapes of the photographic set
so we will never forget
memories bound together in a photograph
the beauty should stay, last forever
enraptured picture, priceless memory
photographic retentions left to infinity
silently captured to never forget
not letting go of all you’ve held onto
the picture strongly held in your hands
trembling for the thoughts in your mind
i won’t let the painful tears roll over your face
so they can leave a cold trace
memories bound together in a photograph
keepsake off the past
all framed in this photograph
photos fading never
unclear sepia shapes of the photographic set
so we will never forget
so we will never forget
i want you to go back two posts. two of my posts. and look at the link that is there, and if it isn't working, here it is:
photo prayer
and i also found another type thing. here:
family
(and this post is in small writing, because i'm feeling small right now)
memories in a photograph
memories captured in a photograph
we want them to stay, last forever
not fading away in our thoughts, never
a memory for the ones who can’t recall
sepia colours on the photo frame
feelings captured so nice
but only this one moment
this moment frozen in time
photos fading never
unclear sepia shapes of the photographic set
so we will never forget
memories bound together in a photograph
the beauty should stay, last forever
enraptured picture, priceless memory
photographic retentions left to infinity
silently captured to never forget
not letting go of all you’ve held onto
the picture strongly held in your hands
trembling for the thoughts in your mind
i won’t let the painful tears roll over your face
so they can leave a cold trace
memories bound together in a photograph
keepsake off the past
all framed in this photograph
photos fading never
unclear sepia shapes of the photographic set
so we will never forget
so we will never forget
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