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An epiphany.

So.

Disappointment=me
Disappointed=me

I'm just sitting here staring at the screen, wondering what I'm actually trying to say. I guess I'm just starting to realize things that have been knocking at the door for a while. Bad analogies are getting there.

I disappoint people=you. Did you know that? Ha, I just had a weird thought. The worst is that I disappoint you=everyone.

Losing time, missing out, forgetting thought.

That's where I'm at right now. Oh, one more thing.
Hateful=me
Hatred=I'm not going there.


Fly, I have tried to fly
To leave it all behind
You, you could heal my wounds
I have tried to leave it all behind, to leave it
Fairweather - The Send

Dear Jack (new trailer)

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I think I need something new.

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Words.

So. I have no idea where I'm going to go with this. But I know it's going to be one of those things that people could get mad at me for. Well, maybe not mad. But you know, question.

I don't fucking care.

Maybe I've been living, acting, thinking, a little to carelessly. Maybe it's because I don't worry enough. Maybe it's because I worry too much. Maybe I keep things bottled up. Maybe that's because I'm scared of feeling vulnerable. Maybe I open up to the wrong people. Maybe it's because I'm overtired when it happens. Mabye I'm someone who rushes things. Maybe that's because I don't want to lose. Maybe I'm a liar. Maybe it's because it's easy. Maybe because I'm good at it. Maybe it's because I'm scared of the truth. Maybe I'm a hypocrite. Maybe that's because I am. Maybe I'm not trustworthy. Maybe that's because I lie. Maybe I'm not a good friend. Maybe because I'm a fucking jerk. Maybe I need to learn when to keep my mouth shut. Maybe that's because I tend to say what's on my mind. Maybe it's because that's not true. Maybe I'm girly. Maybe that's because I am. Maybe I like to reminisce. Maybe that's because I hate losing memories. Maybe that's because sometimes that's all I have. Maybe I've lost close friends. Maybe that's because I'm scared to show who I really am. Maybe that's because I don't know who I really am. Maybe I'm starting to lose it. Maybe "it" refers to many things. Maybe "it" refers to stress. Maybe "it" refers to anger. Maybe "it" refers to friendships. Maybe I don't have anything to say. Maybe that's because I don't have an opinion to share. Maybe I hate myself. Maybe I'm at a loss for words. Maybe I don't know what to do anymore. Maybe that's because I can't think straight. Maybe that's because I don't know how to think. Maybe I hate seeing myself fail. Maybe that's because I'm scared of failure. Maybe I hate seeing others fail. Maybe I've found my future already. Maybe I don't know what my future is. Maybe I hate my future. Maybe that's because there's so many uncertainties. Maybe I doubt myself. Maybe that's because I do. Maybe I should hold my emotions in check. Maybe that's because I tend to lash out too much. Maybe I lash out at the wrong people. Maybe it's because I don't want to hurt the people close to me. Maybe I need to take more interest in my friend's lives. Maybe it's because they do the same for me. Maybe I fake laugh too much. Maybe that's because I hate showing people my true feelings. Maybe I should stop being so defensive. Maybe I need to let my walls down and let someone in. Maybe I love. Maybe I don't know what that means. Maybe my words are hollow. Maybe that's because they are. Maybe I like to do things on my own. Maybe I don't anything in common with anyone around me. Maybe the only things I have in common aren't "good". Maybe I'm already living for the next holiday. Maybe it's because then I can forget everything. Maybe I have regrets. Maybe I didn't think I'd ever be able to hold together a relationship. Maybe I'm waiting for a sign. Maybe it's because I don't know what I really feel. Maybe I need a safe place. Maybe it's because I'm scared, not of what's out there, but of what's in here. Maybe I'm scared of making decisions. Maybe it's because I don't want to make the wrong one. Maybe I need to learn patience. Maybe I should stop getting my hopes up. Maybe it's because every time I do, I get let down. Maybe I want to live in someone else's shoes. Maybe it's because I want to feel differently. Maybe there is no solution.

To pull one thing out:
Maybe I doubt myself.
What do you do when you doubt yourself? Do you doubt yourself?
I doubt a lot of things. Do I doubt you? No, I can't say that I do.

Do you doubt me?



With your eyes closed watching a strange show play out in your head
But you were smiling somehow
And your day froze and everyone in it sat still as a rose
But we were moving somehow

Back to when we started, losing who we were
Maybe we should only tip a bottle back to keep us filled up
Back to when we started, losing who we were
Everybody knows that you'd break your neck to keep your chin up

Open your eyes and the drops come in a snail race down to your neck
And look up but you were smiling somewhere

Back to when we started, losing who we were
Maybe we should only tip a bottle back to keep us filled up
Back to when we started losing who we were
Everybody knows that you'd break your neck to keep your chin up

Chin Up - Copeland

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Bye.

My cheshire cat doorstop with tears in your eyes.

I drafted this months ago, but today I listened to the song again. Still in love with it.

(I fell in love with this song. So listen, love, and don't sleep forever. Oh, and that piano is the best in the world.)

Your granddad left home for the circus
He was young just like me, with hope to explore
He married a girl in Virginia
She could swing the trapeze, they could sleep on the floor

Your mother was born in December
On the one sunny day
That winter gave up
With warm summer eyes
That flickered like fireflies
And she stared at the world

So why do you leave these stories unfinished?
My cheshire cat doorstop with tears in your eyes
And why do you look when you've already found it?
And what did you find that would leave you walking by?

She was raised in a New England village
Then she moved to L.A. with a firefly stare
And you loved sunset strip when it sparkled
You grew up and you sparkled, but why don't you care?

And why do you leave these stories unfinished?
My cheshire cat doorstop with tears in your eyes?
And why do you look when you've already found me?
And what did you find that could leave you walking by?

And these nights I get high just from breathing
When I lie here with you, I'm sure that I'm real
Like that firework over the freeway
I could stay here all day but that's not how you feel

So why do you leave these questions unanswered?
The circus awaits and you're already gone
My cheshire cat doorstop with fear in your smile
What makes it so easy for you to be walking by?

And what did I do that you can't seem to want me?
And why do we lie here and whisper goodbyes?
And where can I go that your pictures won't haunt me?
What makes it so easy for you to be walking by?
Walking by
Walking by

Walking By - Something Corporate

p.s. I just love the beginning of this song

"This poor girl, whoever you're talking about, are you talking about some girl? This guys outing this poor girl as a slut. Some girl who just keeps..I think he knows a DVD's being filmed, and he's just calling this poor girl a slut. Awww, that's not very nice..haha. Alright hey..we don't wanna..I think she knows now, right..I think she knows..alright."

goodnight

Tell her this.

I need to learn how to take compliments better.



For The Nights I Can't Remember - Hedley

I think one of the biggest things I hate right now, is seeing someone fail.

Is that what it takes? 'Cause I could use some of that.

Hello.

So I guess it's time for me to mark the end. Yes, it's the end. The end of something; something great. But although it's the end of something, it's the beginning of something else; something else great. It's been four years:
-of friendship
-of memories
-of jokes
-of "next one, next one"
-of late nights
-of early mornings
-of living for the next chance

So yes, it's the end. But it's also the beginning:
-of friendship
-of memories
-of jokes
-of "next one, next one"
-of late nights
-of early mornings
-of living for the next chance

Here's to new beginnings.

Wretched and assembled
these condescending hands
with condescending habits
and condescending plans

I stand without a clause
in this cause for a break
in this cause for a world
without forfits to take

The only unreliable thing
is relying on you
to rely back on me.

You would like to think you were invincible.

I need to learn to leave well enough alone.


p.s. we lost in four sets

D/C and VB

Picked up "Dashboard Confessional - MTV Unplugged v2.0" today.

It's pretty much amazing.

That's all I have to say..goodbye.

p.s. York Region Volleyball Finals tonight!

Don't forget to be awesome!

Don't bottle up.

So tonight I've been:
- judging myself
- judging my thoughts
- judging my motives
- judging my reasons
- judging my abilities
- judging my future
- judging my life

and here's the kicker:
- judging others

Tonight's ride home was fun. It just confirmed to me that I'm not the only idiot who make's bad choices.

Let's hear it for making bad choices!

Hooray!
Hooray!
Hooray!

F-word me.

I can't.

What do you do when you feel inadequate?

Floating.

(Thanks to Andy Philp)

And baby, now's the time
to make things perfect
and we'll make it perfect
'cause we'll be floating
floating up from here
and we won't sink underwater
'cause we'll be floating up together

Dear.

Okay. So I don't know where I'm going to go with this, but we'll see what happens.

For the longest time, I've wanted to be someone's "go to" guy, the one who everyone just wants to talk to and listen. I've wanted to have something specifically directed at me. I've wanted to be somebody's someone. I've wanted to be somebody I'm not. I've wanted to be somebody I am.

And sometimes, I've just wanted to be somebody.

Sometimes I just wish I could have somebody who I could tell everything too. I've wanted to throw everything out there, and not be judged for it. But there's something that holds me back, something that scares me like nothing else.

I'm scared of losing the people closest to me. I'm scared of losing the few people who I trust.

I think that's what scares me the most about the future. Something about leaving all my highschool friends and moving away, well, it just isn't okay with me. It's taken me nearly four years to establish relationships with people that I don't want to leave it all behind, just to have to start over again. I don't like to think that my life is just one big cycle and every four or so years, it goes "let's do it all over again!" Yeah, I'm not ready for life yet.

I didn't want this to be another post how I'm not ready for my future, so I'm done with that.

Do dreams give some sort of hint towards the future?
Do you remember your dreams?
Do you dream?

I'd like to think that my dreams tell me things. Maybe something about someone, or about my future, or destiny.

Damn. There I go with the future thing again.

Do you believe in destiny?

I know I do. I think there's just too many things that have happened so far in my life for me not to believe in it. Sometimes I've wondered if I've made the right decisions in waiting for destiny to happen. I mean, I've had opportunities that I've either missed or let go, because I felt that something good was bound to happen soon. I sure hope that it pays off.

"You always want what you can't have" So what happens when you do finally get what you can't have? Or does it not work that way?

I hope it works that way. And I hope it works.

The old box full of polaroids sits on my shelf
With the pictures of the first time we took the city by ourselves
And the whole ride home
We played "Konstantine"
And I walked you to your doorstep
And you kissed me in the rain, my lucky day
I still spell konfusion with a "k"

Success Story - Holiday Parade


It's true, I still do spell konfusion with a "k"


You seem so afraid, afraid you'll regret
Regret getting closer and connected to me
And I feel like that too but I'm scared
Scared you'll leave while you feel you can

So I'll just wait and see
So I'll just wait and see and see

Let our eyes say words we'll leave unspoken
When we're trying to be careful
And words can be so confusing
When we're trying to be careful
But not too careful...

Fear, it has its place folded in squares
Squarely tucked in the back pocket of our minds
And yes, it's reckless to act but pointless to decide
Just let your world collide with mine

Let's not wait and see

Let our eyes say words we'll leave unspoken
When we're trying to be careful
And words can be so confusing
When we're trying to be careful
But not too careful...

What's the average number of times people feel this way in a lifetime?
Let's not waste more time

Let our eyes say words we'll leave unspoken
When we're trying to be careful
And words can be so confusing
When we're trying to be careful
But not too careful...

Our Eyes - Teddy Geiger

Is destiny knocking at my door.

So I decided to come back here tonight. I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because I feel the need to say something. Maybe I'm doing it for all of you.

No, I think I'm doing this for me.

I'm scared of moving on with my life. It's as simple as that. I'm scared of moving on in all aspects of my life.

I don't know what my problem is. I get so defensive when people try to help me, especially when I don't want it. Maybe I like to do things on my own, or maybe I'm just to stubborn to accept help from anyone.

So what am I supposed to say?
Why am I having so much trouble writing stuff down?
Am I trying too hard at something that's not meant for me?
Am I cut out for all of this?

It's just that there's so many people who do it better than I do.

God I need some inspiration from somewhere.

When it's quiet, does she hear me?
In a room where no one listens
Don't leave me here, darling
'Cause I feel I might need to be near you

Slow down (come with me).

Slow down, take a deep breath
we're alone, the sun is setting
summer's not over yet
we've still got some time left

So come with me tonight
we'll watch the stars fade, away
we'll go with our lives
but not yet
no, not yet

Slow down, take a look around
fireflies and fireworks
surround us now
and we don't have a care in the world
no, we don't have a care

So come with me tonight
we'll watch the stars fade, away
we'll go with our lives
but not yet
no, not yet

Slow down, you're moving too fast
the moon's fading now
down we'll go together
so let's go down
so let's go down to the water
and we've got one more chance to make this right
so let's make it right
so let's make it right

So come with me tonight
we'll watch the stars fade, away
we'll go with our lives
but not yet
no, not yet

And sometimes we just wanna stay
but I don't know, any other way
to say
goodbye, goodnight, goodbye

So come with me tonight
we'll watch the stars fade, away
we'll go with our lives
but not yet
no, not yet