Wednesday, January 14, 2009

I still have no answer.

I've finally reached my breaking point.

Right now I'm coming from somewhere inbetween a rock and hard place. I'm sure you've all heard that expression in your lives before, and if you haven't, well you should feel great about that. When you're stuck between two hard places that, in the end, will come to the same result, you might have a hard time feeling motivated toward either one of those "places".

I've got chills. I'm wearing a t-shirt, sweater, sweatshirt, and a jacket. It's 21 degrees in the house. Yet, I've still got chills. Tell me, HOW THE FUCK DOES THAT WORK!

I'm definitely at my breaking point.

What do you do when society has lost complete faith in you? What do you do when your own integrity and faith doesn't mean a thing? Why do I feel so lost and so insecure? And why the hell am I lying on the floor? Good God. Is God good? I'd like to think that He is, but at this point in my life, I'm not sure whether the situation I've been placed in could be considered good. Lord, I hope you've got a plan for me.

I'm past my breaking point.

I think it was that speed bump I hit at 110km/h while I was getting as far away from here as possible.


Halfway around the world
Lies the one thing that you want
Buried in the ground
Hundred miles down
The first thing that arises in your mind when you awake
Is bending you till you break let me hold you now

Baby close your eyes don't open till the morning light
Baby don't forget we haven't lost at all yet

Don't know what you're made of till the one thing that you want
Is coming with the dawn and suddenly changes
Monday's syndicate means everyone's the same
And all we've lost to the flame listen to me now

Baby close your eyes don't open till the morning light
Don't ever forget we haven't lost at all yet
All we know for sure is all that we are fighting for
Baby don't forget we haven't lost at all yet

Someday when this is over
We may still have no answer
For now is when I hold her
We are closer
We are closer
We are closer
We are closer

Baby close your eyes don't open till the morning light
Don't ever forget we haven't lost at all yet
And though we know for sure is all that we are fighting for
Baby don't forget we haven't lost at all yet

We are closer
We are closer
Now we are closer
We are closer

The Fray - Syndicate